Emotions and Recovery : By CAMILLE RICHARD

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You may have been taught that your sensitivity is wrong and this may be why your eating disorder became such an important coping mechanism. It helped you stay numb to all the negative emotion...but this so far from the truth. Thing is, when you can’t feel pain you also can’t fully, truly, feel joy.

Being sensitive or emotional just means you have a high level of awareness. You feel the energy of everything around you. You trust the goodness in people. Deep down, you follow your gut. And this gift is extraordinary. Emotions are just signals. They give you the opportunity to heal yourself and the world. You may care so much about others, and in turn too often worry about what they may think of you. Don’t let this stop you from shining. Maybe your fears and insecurities may keep you safe... but they also keep you in the shadows. You deserve to be seen and heard.

So please, stop ignoring your feelings and pretending they’re not there. Stop using food as a way to avoid being GREAT...deep down isn’t that what we are all afraid of? For some people falling down, gives them the fire to fight back, it may not even burn them. I believe we are a little bit different. The fire consume us.

What we have to realize is, we are made of that same fire that tried to destroy us. Every single pain is here for a reason, life doesn’t happen to you but for you. The disorder isn’t here to stop you from living, it was there to protect you. You are not here to continually fight, you are here to rise. Now you need to let it go. Feel it and let it be. Stop picking at the scars, stop reopening the wounds. Stop getting back into the cycle. You already know exactly where it leads. Comfort may be easier but staying the same won’t get you anywhere. Your future can be so much brighter. Ask yourself what would it feel like to be free? To be happy? What would your perfect day be like if you weren’t always worrying and afraid?

Then, act as if you already were there. Why? Because if you break it down, everything starts with feelings. You act on what you think, which creates a pattern of behaviours... We are always reacting to something, either from an internal or external source and that becomes your way of interacting with the world. This makes up your personality and determines your lifestyle. You are the actor of your own life.

We are so scared of being rejected that we often reject ourselves first - so that way others don’t have the chance, it’s called self-sabotage, and the thing is we know how to avoid it. Don’t get me wrong, some people will try to bring you down. Nonetheless, once you realize how unstoppable you are, you just learn to redirect your energy toward something else, something more positive. Deep down, you know what you need to do. We create the disconnection we hate so much (you know, that feeling of “I don’t know who I am?) because we are scared of our own truth. What if you could stop being afraid of your own power?

I love to say : “when a door close, break a window”, which is my version of saying you are not stuck in your life. You are in charge of it. Don’t let the misery stop you, this is not how you were meant to live. Feel it, heal it and move on. Like Ariana sings so well... “Thank you, Next”. Good things are coming, trust me. You always have one simple choice : lean in toward fear OR love. So choose wisely.

Life may not be easy but it is simply beautiful. You might not always be happy but it does not mean you have to live in pain. You might lose sometimes but you’ll win too. You might make mistakes but it doesn’t mean you won’t create miracles. You might hurt but it does not mean you won’t heal.


Be gentle with yourself, your heart and soul.